II hav totally given up on everything including hope.Nth can be done to bring my hopes up high again.II said that ii hav given up on everything including hope is bcoz something ii saw made me think this way...ii am seriously giving up already...this is totally the end for me...ii dunno wad ii can do already.Haiz...

Met new friend n got her number too name is jeanice.She 2day suddenly sms me then we chat on handphone untill recess then after sch we went out to eat.Her friend took her wallet then ii help her take back by snatching then her friend keep chasing me after that kena leg cramp...after that wallet returned but EZ-Link card was taken by them n they took bus n left.Then she waited for Pei En after that they dunno go where b4 going to find the person who took her card...

One more sad thing n that is 2day kena caught by mr chin because of long hair.Mr sewa told me that ii do not nif to cut my hair then mr chin came n told me that my hair nid to be cut so he told me n some of my friends to go out so Mr Su can help up cut.II was damn pek cek at that moment.

Sad for me.2day during PE, we played hockey then after that we r allowed to play our own games.II ran towards the PE room not knowing that the floor is slippery n ii slipped n fell.But that was fun.Then ii played basketball with Edward my classmate.We were playing match then ii went to save the ball which is going out soon not knowing that the grass is slippery n ii fell again.The first slip ii nv injured myself but the 2nd slip ii injured myself.II fell n injured both my knee n palm n all the way till afternoon ii still can feel the pain.Haiz...luckily no one see or instead of helping me they will laugh.

II cannot live without ue in my life.Ue r the most precious person in my life,if ue were to leave me all of a sudden, ii dont know wad ii can do already.Plss don ignore me

2day n ytd ii am a very weird person, ii am totally 2 person lorhx.Ytd after the dance, me, my mummy(wangyu) n my sister(peiyi), we went to eat dessert.When we r eating, we were laughing then suddenly ii saw a helicopter fly past, ii look at it n started emoing.Then 2day, ii emo for dunno how long then ii suddenly cry feeling like no one cares bout me anymore.It like everyone is on HER side.When ii am with HER, everyone talk to me then when ii am seperated from HER, everyone start ignoring me ii am so sad.Even mummy also ignores me.When ii chat with her ii feel like ii am chatting to the wall coz ii talk to her she juz talk to her friends n nv talk to me.II am a person who change very quickly.At 1 moment ii laugh n joke, then at another moment ii sarted emoing.2day is the worst emoing day of my life coz today is the only day ii started crying when ii am emoing.Now that we r going seperate way, ii feel like an emo kid who hav been thrown to 1 corner.Haiz...the emoing life for me has started again.II don wanna lead an emoing life plss kill me straight away.Having to lead an emoing life is vry sad for me as ii will cry alot n ii may slash myself coz now that everyone is ignoring then ii cannot talk to anyone.II really don wanna lead this kind of life.It is vry hard to live a life without anyone to talk to n bottling up yur own thing n start self harm.II am sry to who ever ii have upset.Really, really sry.If ii can amend my mistakes ii swear to ue all that ii will not make the same mistakes again.II will try not to emo so much as it will lead to self harm n thus making many ppl upset.Those who ii hav upset, plss forgive me. :'(

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II trusted ue all but ue all betrayed me ii cant believe it at all mummy, dion, ii am disappointed in ue both.Ue both hav betrayed me ii so cant believe it. GOD DAMMIT!! II hav totally lost trust in ue both ue both hav really disappointed me.Now ii get the feeling of those ppl hu r betrayed by their friends, ii really cannot trust the both of ue anymore ue both r not trust worthy at all.

2day only can say that ii feel sad for many ppl including myself.II am being ignored by many including my jies. II wan cry liao, only mummy n some of my classmates is talking to me ii think ii can emo for the rest of my life liao.More n more ppl is ignoring me ii am soon gonna be a lonesome person.Jie jie plss chat with me ii don wanna be a lonesome boy ii wanna be loved by all ii don wanna be ignored if this continue on ii can go n die liao.II really wanna die.Slashing got big problem, ii really regret slashing but ii really hav my own problem that cannot be told that y ii slash myself. :'(
II also hope that ii can stop slashing myself coz ii really cant speak out.

Mummy n jiejie if ii hav told ue wad ii wan to say to prevent self-harming, ii wan to thank ue all for keeping it a secret.II am really vry moody this few days n ii am so gonna be moody all the way till end of the EYE.Mummy, jiejie, ii love ue all vry much after EYE, ii can go out with ue all already.Now EYE is near my mother don really let me go out already.II hope after EYE ue all will bring me go out along with ue all if ue all r going out.II really don wanna trap at home for the whole of next few month.If possible ue all got go out do sms me to ask me along.

Living is the same as dead.Living with punishment, dead also with punishment.
On earth, we do wrong things, we get punishment.In hell or heaven when we do wrong things, we also get punish.So since ii am living miserably, might as well juz go commit sucide n not to feel trouble bout anything.Feeling trouble then keep thinking bout itis bad for health then sometimes ue cant even speak out to others which will lead to harming ourself.Haiz...ii hav no idea y ii started slashing myself all of a sudden then my god-sister started ignoring me.Then will hav no friends or sister to care bout me.II wan to cry, devil plss bring me as far away from this world as possible.

Someone plss save me from my thoughts of commiting suicide my mind is going wilder n wilder plss save miie ii nid an angel help.Mummy, jie, mei, di, anyone plss come n help me ii nid yur help ii wanna cry.II cannot survive in this demonic world ii nid an angel help, plss help me even if ue guyz really hate me alot but plss help me for this once or at least get a knife or scissors or anything sharp n stab me ii will write a message for the police to explain plss help me.(Devil o' devil plss come n kill me ii don wanna live anymore:"(....)

II hope that 1 day ii can leave the world without no one knowing.Staying in the world is equalise to staying in the prison always staying at home no freedom if ii were to go missing 1 day without no one knowing it will be great coz no one will feel sad for me then ii can R.I.P.Haiz...everyone treat me as enemy n no one ever care for me.Where ever ii go ppl will treat me as outsider or enemy,so living is equalise to nth.Leaving the world without a care n without anyone knowing that will let me be happy if ii were really go missing or R.I.P one day ii hope no one will be sad for me coz it not worth crying or feel upset n if ii were to pass away at this very moment ii will hav to say that ii am very sry to those ppl who r very close to miie.I'm sorry guyz plss forgive miie.

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